A YEAR IN THE MAKING.

at the beginning of this year i began a journey that led me to this point.  the point where i am now posting for the first time on this blog.  all the experiences, stops and starts, personal revelations and research were a necessary preparation.   i could not have arrived at this moment any other way, not for lack of trying.  yet, i am always amazed when i sense the "arrival" has happened one more time and in another facet of my life. the timing that is not mine to manipulate or control but is fully available to savor.  should i have the wits to perceive it.  so for me it always seems that my role is to maintain open-ness.  maintenance through fresh or refreshed input from other sources through visual, aural, spiritual, and any other sense explainable and unexplainable.  maintenance through inner examination and quieting.

i found the willingness at the start of 2010 to try and find that child that loved to draw and paint, explore and learn.  that child before or under all those layers of experience that interpreted creativity as a way to cope with harshness in the world.  coping through an inner life brought into existence by pencil and paper, books and music.    i already work, being many years now, at growing up other aspects of myself that were deemed more "practical".   i am accepting that this journey now is a needed part of the completeness i seek.   the best part is that it does not matter if  i finish if i focus on enjoying the path.